Garden state of mind

I know there are a few of you awaiting my thoughts on Garden State.  Here goes nothing (if you're expecting a movie review, this isn't it). I was nervous going into the movie, b/c I've built it up so much ever since I was aware of its conception, I thought I might be disappointed.  It's kind of like when people meet me in person after hearing so many great and wonderful things- it's a bit of a let down.  But enough about me.  Garden State was fantastic!  I absolutely loved it.  The time has come that the rest of the world shall know the greatness that is Zack Braff.  Well, they probably already do, but this just solidifies it.  The best part about the movie is not necessarily the story, but the characters.  Natalie Portman, who someone said peeked at 12 and I agree, was awesome.  Now I can remove "Where the Heart is" and "Anywhere but Here" as films that come to mind when the name Natalie Portman is mentioned.  And Peter Sarsgard.  Oh Peter, you're just amazing in everything you do.  Even this really weird movie I saw at SXSW whose name I can't remember.  Something to do with you living with an agoraphobic woman and she suspects you're a murderer but you're actually a nice guy who helps her to face her fears.  Anyway, I digress.  The movie definitely had its overly sentimental moments, but I didn't care.  I almost wanted to shed a tear in support of those moments b/c I liked the movie as a whole.  It's one of those movies where I left the theater happy b/c I'd seen such a great movie and I couldn't wait to talk to Ashley about how much we loved it, but it also left me depressed b/c I'm not Natalie Portman, I didn't make out with Zach, and I'm unsure if I'll ever feel anything like the characters in the movie.  Truth is, I do.  I'm lost, confused, sad, happy, f*cked up- and many other things, but I don't have time to list them all.  It's just not as glamorous b/c people aren't paying to watch me feel these things.  I guess the biggest thing is I'm so hard up for someone to be really into me.  B/c I know I'm constantly meeting people I find fascinating and want to spend as much time as possible getting to know (but that's a little bit of bullsh*t, b/c this usually ends after a week).  I don't know what my point is, I guess I just want someone to feel so much for me and me to feel that way back.  Completely mutual feelings of liking/caring/loving/what have you.  I found myself completely enthralled by the oddities of Natalie Portman's character, and I thought to myself, "I'm weird like that".  In a different way, but still weird.  Now I just need a Zach Braff aka Andrew Largeman to find that fascinating, not strange.  You know what though, I can talk in circles about what my "problem" is, but maybe in reality I just need to shut the f*ck up about it.  I'm going to try that right now.
Reagan